This week flew by~~~ Finally my long anticipated long-weekend has arrived. Didnt do anything crazy exciting.
Friday - - dinner @ chosun with jessica (the food was sooo goood) then sang K for 2 hrs+ then estea for 10 mins. We got a seat then finally decided that none of us really want bbt...so we ended up @ quay's house, drinking til 4am
Saturday - - went shopping with my brother, jessica, quay, jason and derrik. In the end it was more like just with my brother and jessica. My bro had to get stuff for his grad photos. I love shopping with guys~! lol~Then I went to rmd with Helen, Nathan to have dinner with Tina, Linda and Marco.
2 more days left!!!!!!!!!!! I have to enjoy it the best I can!!!!
Last night I had a very weird and uncomfortable dream...not exactly disturbing but definitely made me feel bitter. Since when did I start dreaming abt you?
I haven't logged onto xanga for the longest, longest time...I can hardly remember how to navigate around their interface~~ Looking back at my previous entries...can't help but feel I could be happier. There's new things to worry about everyday...and I don't even know where to start. My trainer told me at my co-op job that life never throws you impossible situations, it only goes to show how capable we are when we actually experience one. I can't really paraphrase what she said. I've always had the difficulty of expressing myself.
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Last night...really marked an end to everything. Everything in terms of the feelings that's been dwelling inside me for the longest time. It made me realize once again how foolish I am. History never fails to repeat itself, that's why I find humanity so awkwardly amusing. I have an overpowering urge to break something, to smash something to pieces...until it can never be put back together again. I am not angry with anyone...I am just angry with myself. I should've seen it coming but I let it consume me. I once thought, whatever happens, right now is what matters. At this moment, I'm really having second thoughts. I don't know what I want anymore. I don't know if it was all worth it. It was all in my head. Once you've stained my impression of you, then there's nothing you can do. I know I can't hate him and I'm probably blowing everything out of proportion.... but I'm fed up with myself. Reality can be so fucking disappointing.
Compare!!!!! VIVID COLORS~Laruku in 1994, approx (above) and last yr's performance on their 15 L'Anniversary tour (below)~ Amazing...voice is still strong & powerful as ever~ lol hyde's my princess^0^ i kno i keep reminding ppl bt...I SERIOUSLY LOVE HYDE WITH LONG, WAVY HAIR! HE'S JUS BEAUTIFUL and goddess-like~~ i feel like if im a guy i would pounce on Hyde no second thots! lol~ he's jus so feminine in a non-turn off way...some feminine guys givs u da creeps...bt (imo) hyde is like i duno how to explain it~ ^^"" *i am hopelessly in luv w/ this band*
I've mentioned on soompi b4 bt i will mention agen here^^ some of u may alrdy know~ ROSIEL from the manga ANGEL SANCTUARY was actually based on the looks of HYDE during his indies period!!! If you watch performance of hyde during 1994, u will totally c the resemblance. Rosiel is suppose to be an inorganic angel (male) bt in the manga he looks a lot like a female~XD the author of this manga was a fan of laruku XDD *weeee* happi*
*below* ROSIEL's twin sister, ALEXIEL (organic angel) who also resembles hyde~~
Alexiel
Alexiel
BLURRY EYES [PV]
an unusually slow song by laruku [1994] is it me or it sounds sorta hawaiian? Nemuri Ni Yosete
I am almost certain now dat i am officially a weirdo with my weird fetish with feminine guys... He makes me want to be a man so i can kidnap Hyde to be my wife aka *cough* sex slave* cough* ...jk~XD
One of the many reasons y I nvr stop worshipin this band~~~ They r truly truly talenteddd~ ppl who havnt gotten bored of my laruku entries yet~~ these 2 clips is a MUST-WATCH! medley from their 15th L'Anniversary live~ thx to 888BLUE888 for uploading~~ Once agen HYDE's voice is flawlesss~~~
